To Surrender or not to Surrender?

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Coming up on the 26th February, we have a powerful solar eclipse (new moon).  The sun is joined by the Moon, Mercury, the South Node,  Neptune and widely by Chiron … all in Pisces. That’s a whole lot of water right there!

Solar Eclipses always indicate major endings, in order to usher in the new. This is  especially true when they happen in Pisces. Being the last sign of the zodiac, this signals that the end of the astrological year is nigh.  This one is connected to the Pisces  Solar eclipse in March 2015, so  there might very well be a connection, if you think back to that time.

Pisces is a dual water sign  (two fish swimming in opposite directions) and relates to the dreamworld, imagination,  intuition, surrender, Divine Connection and all things mystical. However, it is also associated with  delusion, illusion, addiction and  self-sabotage. It shows us where we let ourselves down, over and  over again, where we still consider ourselves to be victims and where we’re waiting for somebody else to come in and rescue us.

If this eclipse involved only a batch of planets in Pisces, I would expand on that, but it’s really not that simple.  Bringing all that  water to the boil , we also  have a major pattern in the sky, formed by Mars (masculine, goals, ambitions, ego drives) in fiery Aries ( the  warrior)  at the same degree as Uranus,  the planet of radical change and liberation; square  transformational Pluto and opposite expansive Jupiter.

So in English now… this combination of energy says – “What do you desire?  Where do you want to go?  How are you going to get there?  It’s time to push yourself forward, take no prisoners!  Don’t be a woes! Make those changes now and  get things moving!.”

So… what do we do with that?

Push forward or surrender?

I’ve just read a very interesting book called The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer.  He has made a life-long  commitment to release his personal preferences, and surrender to the bigger “plan” for his life. The story that emerges is very  interesting,  because every single time he relinquishes his ego drive,  something bigger and better than he ever could have imagined, opens up for him.

However, I have to admit, even though this resonated with me on one level, there was and still is, a voice inside my head  that pops up to say…. “But what happens to MY dreams, MY needs, MY purpose… if I surrender entirely to the flow???”

I’ve been mulling over this for a while and have yet to come up with anything definitive, but it does bring to mind  the first  time I ever rode a horse in the wild. It was at NIGHT, a moonless night at that and we were heading down into a valley in the middle of Zululand.  At one point, early on  in the ride,   I could see absolutely nothing. Let me tell you, my ego was freaking out. Every part of me wanted to take control of that horse, or get off and walk.  My body was stiff, I was scared and hanging on for dear life. A friend (experienced at riding in the dark) advised me to soften my body and give my horse a very long rein so that he would be able to smell and sense his way along.

This was completely counter- intuitive, because all  I wanted to do was tighten the reins and hang on with all my might. However,  due to the fact that I didn’t actually know anything about riding, and  had no idea of how to get to where we were going,  I had no option but to take his advice.  All I needed to do was to stay on the horse and keep my head down, to avoid being de-eyed by unseen branches!

The amazing thing was the  more I surrendered my control and put my faith in this  incredibly intuitive being, the more I realised that I could trust him to lead me to where I needed to go, which he did… and flawlessly at that, never even faltering once.  Along the way, on the straight sections, we cantered, wind in our hair…nothing but the sound of horses hooves on the ground and the occasional “Yeehaa!” from the likes of me and my fellow rookies.  I remember closing my eyes at one point and letting my steed do what horses do, without any interference from me at all. I felt completely connected to  him, to the evening, to the earth, the sky, the stars… the whole caboodle.

By trusting and surrendering to something bigger, I had one of the most exhilarating, liberating experiences of my life … and I reached the destination, but in an entirely different way to how I would have planned it. If I reflect on it, whenever   I have surrendered to the flow, I have been supported!

I  guess there is a midpoint somewhere between our  ego drives and surrender.  Perhaps this eclipse asks us to find it. What if we show up, wholeheartedly… get on the horse, head in the basic direction and then let go of the reins a little?  What if we are kinder, gentler, less cruel, less rigid… softer… towards ourselves and others?  What if we are able to relax and trust that we really are not alone in all  this and that there might be an even bigger, more delicious  plan in store for us than the one we’ve imagined ?

As Rumi says, “Life is a balance between holding on and letting go” … perhaps it’s  a dance between making it happen and allowing it happen.

Please see my newsletter or email me for details about my “Art of Surrender” workshops in March.

 

In life and light

Michelle

Lifelight Astrology Update 9 February

Lunar Eclipse 11th February – It’s a biggie!

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Hi everybody. Here’s a heads-up on the first eclipse of the year, which happens on the 11th February. This is a lunar eclipse, or a multi-coloured full moon on steroids! It will be followed by a Solar Eclipse (new moon) on the 26th February.

An eclipse represents a gateway, an opportunity, an opening… as well as a time when whatever has been going on beneath the surface, tends to rise up to the surface!  Being a full moon, the focus is likely to be on relationships – those with the people in our lives, as well as with our money, our bodies, our homes etc. The degree of the eclipse is at 22 degrees Leo and Aquarius, so look at the houses that it straddles to find out where it’s likely to play out in your chart.

The good news is that due to the way the planets are aligning around this eclipse, there is a real potential to clear and shift old patterns and obstacles!

The sun is in airy AQUARIUS  (which represents individuality, originality and quirkiness) The moon is in multi-coloured LEO, which represents creativity, joy, warmth and fun.  Together they form a mystic rectangle with Jupiter (the planet of expansion and opportunity) and Uranus (the planet of conscious collective change and liberation).

(Now you know why I posted the pic of the Rainbow Butterfly Unicorn Kitten!)

And that’s not all! They form a  GRAND FIRE TRINE and not one, but  two kites – a stunning combination of air and fire energy that provides a gateway to inspiration, enthusiasm, opportunity and change.

Have a look at this chart and try to sense  the energy of the rectangle, the big blue  triangle and the 2 kites. The blue lines symbolise easy flowing energy, the red  lines represent polarities or tension.  How does it feel to you?

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This eclipse has a big upside. It’s a beautiful invitation to connect with and express our TRUE COLOURS  in all their glory– our inner sun, our heart, our creative life source (Leo) and then allow our unique expression to shine out and ripple out into the world (Aquarius).

There’s a whole lot of good, positive energy around, but we also need to be aware that all the planets involved are ALL  in fire and air signs – that’s a lot of of masculine energy right there!  When I personally feel into the energy, it seems exciting, quickening, almost urgent! There’s lots of inspiration (fire), an abundance  of ideas (air) and plenty of busy-ness!

One small note of caution. We need to remember that air fans fire and that runaway fires can destroy everything in sight!

So…

it would be  good…

to remember to…

PAUSE

in between different activities over the next few weeks. Stop, take a few breaths before we start the next activity or engage with the next idea!

Try it… It really does work!

If we’re able to find our still-point in the midst of all the movement, there’s an excellent chance that we can use the energy of this eclipse to shift, resolve and clear old redundant issues!

If there is a situation or issue that you don’t know how to resolve, try sitting quietly for a  few moments. Connect to your breath and then gently place the situation inside your heart. Send send light and love into it, breathe out and surrender it upwards and outwards.

Then be  on the lookout  for unexpected aha moments, ideas, downloads,  inspirations and  new answers to old problems. They WILL come in if we are open enough. We simply need to show up in our true  multi-coloured presence!

If you haven’t already booked, I still have space on my Rainbow Healing Workshop on 25th February. Its the perfect time to be shifting and clearing and healing!

TRUE COLOURS (Lovely version here) 

You with the sad eyes
Don’t be discouraged
Oh I realize
It’s hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
And that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
Don’t be unhappy, can’t remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you’ve taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I’ll be there

And I’ll see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow

In life and light, with a few rainbow butterfly unicorn chickens thrown in !

 

Michelle

 

Lifelight Astrology 11 January 2017

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Image by Gabriel Tamaya

HONOURING THE FEMININE

We kick this year off Astrologically with an intense, super sensitive, feminine Full Moon in Cancer on 12th  January, AND all the planets have turned direct!  Leading up to, during and after the Full Moon, it’s highly likely that emotions could run high. Full moons  always highlight the polarities that exist within us and in our relationships, bringing to the surface that which has been hiding in the dark. .. and this is a big one!

Involved  with this Full moon, are  Pluto the plumber and planet of intense transformation who is travelling close to the Sun in responsible Capricorn, the Moon in sensitive, nurturing Cancer; both of which are squared by Uranus ( planet of change) and Jupiter (planet of expansion) .  This forms a giant Grand Cross in the Sky, which has the potential of cracking open and breaking through the armour that we may have erected around our hearts, in our striving to move forward. The full moon is also in a flowing trine formation to a group of planets in Pisces (a feminine sign). These include the wounded healer Chiron, Neptune, Mars and Venus, so its a very fertile time for feeling and healing on all levels.

As we all hurtle up our respective responsibility-laden, goal-driven mountains,  ensuring that we’re earning enough money, working as hard as we can, taking care of everybody else, perhaps burning the candle at both ends,  there’s a huge  tendency to close off our hearts, block off our emotions and become desensitised to what’s actually  going on inside and around us .

This full moon sets the scene for us to really start to honour and respect the softer, more vulnerable parts of ourselves, because only when we’re able to do so, can we respect and honour the same in others.

Meryl Streep recently made a powerful heart wrenching speech when she received her award at the Golden Globes.   There has been some controversy about it, but for me, Streep ( a Cancerian)  epitomises the mature woman, who despite her huge success, has kept her heart open and therein lies her immense talent and power.

She quotes

Disrespect invites disrespect.

Violence incites violence.  

Take your broken heart.

Make it into Art.

Most of us are scared stiff of allowing our hearts to be broken open. It feels much easier to  build walls around them. We witness something horrifying.  We turn away. We continue to trudge up the mountain. We become immune!

The problem is that when we block out the difficult feelings, we also block out the good ones.  Repress, ignore or numb pain and we start to flat-line, as  feelings of love and joy can’t flow freely either.

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This full moon and for the next few weeks, see if you can  surrender to the feelings that arise  (because  they will).  Feel.  Breathe. Soften. Allow.  If you try it – you’ll notice that the difficult  emotions pass  much quicker when we don’t suppress them and they are also less likely to  emerge later as  explosions or illness or depression.

This grand cross is likely to bring some of  our exiled shadow bits out of hiding. This could result in people projecting their issues onto you, so,  when interacting with others in the next few days, take long, deep, calming breaths before you react.

 As our own emotional reactions (Cancer) become less spiky and more considered (Capricorn), our interactions with others become smoother as well.

The message of this full moon is about  embracing and expanding the mature mother within us , men and women alike. Rather than expecting and waiting for someone else to provide us with what we need, we’re being asked to learn to give it to ourselves. But… before we can do that, we have to connect with what we need.

If it’s normal for you to put everybody else’s needs before yours, this is the time to start turning that around. There really is nothing noble about ignoring our feelings and our needs and not taking care of ourselves. All that happens when we do, is that they go underground, only to reappear in a different form, when we least expect it.

 If, like many of us, you’re not particularly adept at nurturing yourself, commit (Capricorn) to doing something nurturing (Cancer) for yourself every single day, until it becomes a habit.  Its like watering a plant daily. Do it with love and tenderness and the plant will flourish and grow.  This will look different for us all. It could be something as simple as massaging cream (gently and tenderly) into your skin, quietly sipping a steaming cup of something, languishing in a hot foamy bath or cooking yourself some comfort food.

If each of us brings more softness, more gentlenesss into our lives, it magnifies out into the world and brings about change at a level we cannot even comprehend.

“The planet does not need more successful people. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers, healers restorers, story tellers and lovers of all kinds”.

These are the words of the Dalai Lama, who like Madiba,  is a Cancerian – real men, who have integrated their Mature Feminine. This is what the world needs now.

Love

 

Michelle

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lifelight Astrology

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26th December 2016

Every now and then, the Universe gifts us with a New Moon right at the end of a calendar year and that’s exactly what’s happening in a few days time! It’s a gift because New Moon’s are always opportunities to finish off and let go, so that we can plant beautiful new seeds.

On the 29th December, the Moon joins the Sun and Mercury (retrograde) in Capricorn. It’s almost as if we have our very own trio of  mountain goats, beckoning us to journey with them up the 2017 mountain. They’re at the ready to  equip us with  resourceful guidance, discipline, structure, responsibility and commitment.

…All sound a tad boring?  Well, never fear… Uranus is near, giving us a hearty whack of maverick energy to kick start the New Year!

The planet of change and liberation, turns direct on the same day as the new moon,  after a five month retrograde period.  When Uranus is retrograde, we feel the force of change internally, but often aren’t able to make it manifest, for one reason or another.

This new moon, should, by all accounts, be a positive catalyst for change! Yeah!

All those plans you’ve had – all the change you’ve  wanted to bring into your life?  This is the time!   If you feel excited and maybe a little nervous  about doing something different – something that will  expand you,  ignite you, excite you…that’s our revolutionary friend Uranus!

Connect with the energy of this mature, thoughtful, goal-driven Capricorn new moon to assess the changes you want to integrate into your life. Write them down. Make dates in your calendar. Commit to them.

And then… stir in a handful or two of sparkly  Uranus energy to take it up a few notches. Break out of the norm. Do something new… or… Do something old in a way you’ve never done before. Embrace the unique, the unusual, the invigorating!

Why not?

What do you have to lose?

Happy New Year to you all.  Its gonna be a cracker!

 

In life and light

Mercury Retrograde/ Summer Solstice

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Here’s a quick  heads up, as we scurry or scuffle towards the end of the year. Mercury in Capricorn turns retrograde on the 20th December until the 9th January. Being the planet of communication, it can and often does coincide with  disturbances or breakdowns in all forms of communication and conveyance. SO, even if it feels like you don’t have the time,  take a few moments to back up your ALL your data – across all your devices. Check your travel bookings and allow for extra time to get wherever you’re going. Check documents before you sign them and take ten deep breaths before you react verbally – to anything. Mercury is travelling alongside Pluto right now, which could make for some fairly intense interactions!

Apart from the irritating stuff, at a deeper level, we are all being given an opportunity to carefully consider, assess (Mercury Retrograde in Capricorn)  and transform ((Pluto) the way we think and communicate.

Over the next few weeks, see if you can  unplug from the continual influx of information whenever you can and re-flect on the quality of your thoughts. Ask whether the story you’re telling about yourself and your world is true. If not, set the intention to ditch some of the old mental garbage and start re-designing and re-framing your thoughts.

Down south, we have the Summer Solstice on the 21st December which is the longest day of the year, after which, the days start to get shorter.

The Solstice is always significant and powerful and is the perfect time to  release the old and dream in  the new – before we get carried away with Christmas and New Year festivities. If you haven’t yet, take a few moments (that’s really all it takes) to reflect back on the last 12 months (See my last blog) . Recognise  the wins,  losses,  challenges and  victories, acknowledging every single thing as integral to your journey.

A lovely ritual you can do at the solstice, is to write down anything you want to release from the year and surrender it into a candle flame or a bonfire. Remember that fire transmutes and transforms, changing what was into something else.

Then – write down your hopes and wishes for the next year onto another piece of paper. Light it and watch as the paper transforms to smoke, carrying your intentions out into the Universe.

I’ll be running two Vision board workshops in January to get those intentions working even more. Vision boards really work folks. See below for details or if you don’t receive my newsletter, email me on michellemcclunan@gmail.com

Thank you all for reading my ramblings and for those of you who have had readings done, attended my workshops and classes or in some way, been part of my 2016, I’m filled with appreciation and gratitude for the richness you’ve added to my life.

May you all have a stunning Solstice, a blessed Christmas and Fantastic New Year !

Love

 

Michelle

What IF?

What IF?

LIFELIGHT ASTROLOGY 28th NOVEMBER 2016

Well, we’ve finally gurgled our way through the raging rivers of Scorpio… whew…!  Now now hopefully we can put our heads up and take a nice big expansive breath of fresh air with the New Moon in Sagittarius on  29th November.  The archer fires his invigorating arrows and calls us to lighten up a little.

I’ve been musing about this New moon and what I’m going to write for a few days now  and I just couldn’t  bring myself to go into anything serious. I have no desire to write about slowing down, being healthy, connecting with our emotions, going deep, transforming, transmuting… or saving the planet.

Perhaps it’s because this new moon is activating my Sagittarian moon (which has been a little soggy of late) , or maybe it’s due to the heaviness and seriousness  that has surrounded us for the past few months. Or it could be because I’m just a little soul tired, if not a tad jaded… Its probably a combination of all three.

Whatever the reason, today I’m going to focus on the largess, the generosity, the expansion, the truth of  Jupiter…. the ruler of this new moon.

When I think of Jupiter, I think of the laughing Buddha, I think of breaking bread with friends at a table laden with delicious food, flowers and wine, jesters, clowns, magic, travelling to exciting new places, being outrageous, feeling the wind in your hair, diving into an ocean, riding a horse in the countryside,  turning up the music and dancing as if  nobody’s watching,  relishing the smell of freshly baked bread, newly ground coffee, picking some flowers, biting into a strawberry, soaking in a bath filled with bubbles  – I think of LIVING, growing and expanding.

A  while ago I wrote in my journal…” What if…. there is nothing else I have to achieve… nobody I have to please, nothing I have to do any better or any more perfectly… What if… I was complete right now… if I could accept and embrace myself as I am … this moment?”

What if?

When I read those words, I feel expansive. I feel relieved. I feel light. I feel free.

The reality is that when we do manage to let go of the need to control and scheme and analyse, even for short periods, we actually rewire our brains and redesign our physiology. So …when we’re having fun or relaxing, we’re actually healing ourselves and our lives.

I remember listening to a talk I listened to by Deepak Chopra, where he said that when you’re in ecstasy, you create millions of dollars of Interluken 2, which cures dire diseases like Cancer!

When last did you experience ecstasy … or joy… or something close to it?

How can you connect with that again?

So… how about it?

What if, this week and this month, you allowed yourself to embrace the expansive playful  child-like you (even for short periods)  and  released yourself from the prison of  responsibilities, concerns and burdens occasionally?  What if you embraced your quirky side? What if you bestowed upon yourself the luxury of spending some time doing the things or having the experiences that gave you a sense of freedom and joy?

This is my invitation to you this  month – and if it works, maybe for EVER.

I’d love you to share the fun adventures you have, big and small with me on my Facebook page. Let’s inspire each other.

I’m running my Wrap it up Workshop on Saturday 17th and Sunday 18th of December, so be sure not to miss the opportunity of celebrating and completing the year. If you’re not on my Newsletter list, email me for details.

 

Injoy

Michelle

 

Lifelight Astrology 10th November

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By Michelle McClunan

Well here we are… most of us reeling a little, in the wake of a somewhat volcanic week. But…if you’re reading this, you’re still here, breathing in and out, so well done!

If you’ve managed to tear yourself away from US politics for a few minutes, you may have read a bit about the upcoming, beautiful, bountiful, Super Moon in Taurus on the 14th November. This certainly isn’t your garden variety full moon. Bella Luna will be closer to the earth than she’s been since 1948 and won’t be again until 2034. She will apparently be 14% bigger and 30% brighter  than usual, so be sure to stay up late to see her on the 13th or get up early on the 14th to bathe in her.

But bountiful moons aside, if we penetrate through the surface beauty of the spectacle, what does the moment represent for us symbolically?

For me, more than anything, the forthcoming full moon is about examining/ investigating (Sun in Scorpio) our core values & beliefs (moon in Taurus). The moon forms harmonious aspects to Pluto (the plumber) and Chiron (the wounded healer), which assist us in finding healing through excavating the truth that exists within us.

With all the upheavals this year, from Brexit, to the Refugee Crisis, our ongoing South African political and economic challenges and shenanigans and of course the recent rather shocking selection of Trump as President of the US, it seems to me that our values as a people are seriously being called into question.

A personal value system is a set of principles or ideals that drive and/or guide your behaviour. Your personal value system gives you structure and purpose, by helping you determine what is meaningful and important to you. It helps you express who you are and what you stand for.

If you take the Statue of Liberty for example, it symbolically represents many values,  among them friendship between nations and freedom from oppression…. It’s pretty clear that we’re  experiencing a crisis of values !

It boils down to this. If we don’t know what our personal value systems are, how do we go about making important decisions in our lives?  If we have no idea of what we stand for and are driven purely by fear, how do we vote for the right person to run our country or to marry, or find the right place to live, or a job that we enj0y?

It can sometimes be tricky to find out what our specific, personal values are. If you Google “List of Values” , you’ll find hundreds and a lot of them will resonate with you. I mean, who doesn’t want love, happiness, success, connection, stability etc?

But how do we go about finding those that are really close to our hearts, so that we can navigate our lives more successfully?

Here’s something you can try:

FIND AND LIST YOUR TRIGGERS

Who or what makes your hair stand on end, or the blood rise to your face? What makes you really angry, anxious or upset? What do Trump / Malema/ Zuma / irate taxi drivers/ rude people, / the destruction of Mother Earth/  etc trigger in  you?

How does this process help?  Well, whatever we truly despise, be it egotistical despots, rapists, racists… or cruelty, dishonesty, narcissism… provides clues as to what’s important to us at a fundamental level.

So, take some time to mull it over and pick ten poisons or pet hates and write them down.

WRITE DOWN THE OPPOSITE

Read through your list and, one by one, write down antonyms.

For example –  If “racism” is one pet hate, ask yourself what the opposite of racism is for you. If you hate feeling stifled, then freedom might be on your value list. If you freak out when somebody demeans another person, it might be fairness or justice

You get the drift, I’m sure!

USE THE LIST AS A COMPASS

When you are trying to make a decision about something, use the list as a compass to determine whether something fits for you.

If, for example, freedom of expression is at the top of your list, you might want to re-think that relationship where you walk on eggs and are terrified to express yourself. If flexibility is important, you may want to consider how you can loosen the reigns on your control issues.

In the midst of the chaos that surrounds us, let’s allow the Super Moon to  shine her light into the shadowed corners of our psyches and bring to the surface what’ we really hold dear. This needs to be a “no holds barred” investigation. We need to be completely honest with ourselves, even if we choose not to broadcast our findings! Remember, it’s our personal value systems we’re looking for and they don’t really have anything to do with anybody else. It’s when we refuse to acknowledge them,  that the confusion sets in.

And last, but certainly not least, let’s look at how much or how little we value ourselves, because if we don’t,  it’s almost impossible to truly  value anybody or anything else. Actually, its when we underestimate our essential worth that  we find ourselves making the “wrong” decisions or ending up in unsuitable, disempowering relationships, workplaces and life situations.

At any given moment, pause and ask yourself. “ How can I best value myself in this situation?” or when deciding to do something, “Does this indicate that I value myself or not?”  If it doesn’t, reconsider it.

WORKSHOPS, CLASSES, CONSULTS – NOVEMBER AND DECEMBER

I’ll be running two December Wrap it Up workshops on  the  17th and 18th December. (see my newsletter or email me for details) This is a good opportunity to take stock of and complete your year, before you go hurtling into Christmas and 2017.

My River of Life Workshop on the 26th November is full and I’ve been asked by a couple of people if I can run one on the 27th as well. Please let me know if you’d like to join us.

I will be available for  Astrology consults and Coaching sessions  for the first few weeks of December, so let me know if you’d like to make an appointment.

 

In Life and Light

 

Michelle