To Surrender or not to Surrender?

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Coming up on the 26th February, we have a powerful solar eclipse (new moon).  The sun is joined by the Moon, Mercury, the South Node,  Neptune and widely by Chiron … all in Pisces. That’s a whole lot of water right there!

Solar Eclipses always indicate major endings, in order to usher in the new. This is  especially true when they happen in Pisces. Being the last sign of the zodiac, this signals that the end of the astrological year is nigh.  This one is connected to the Pisces  Solar eclipse in March 2015, so  there might very well be a connection, if you think back to that time.

Pisces is a dual water sign  (two fish swimming in opposite directions) and relates to the dreamworld, imagination,  intuition, surrender, Divine Connection and all things mystical. However, it is also associated with  delusion, illusion, addiction and  self-sabotage. It shows us where we let ourselves down, over and  over again, where we still consider ourselves to be victims and where we’re waiting for somebody else to come in and rescue us.

If this eclipse involved only a batch of planets in Pisces, I would expand on that, but it’s really not that simple.  Bringing all that  water to the boil , we also  have a major pattern in the sky, formed by Mars (masculine, goals, ambitions, ego drives) in fiery Aries ( the  warrior)  at the same degree as Uranus,  the planet of radical change and liberation; square  transformational Pluto and opposite expansive Jupiter.

So in English now… this combination of energy says – “What do you desire?  Where do you want to go?  How are you going to get there?  It’s time to push yourself forward, take no prisoners!  Don’t be a woes! Make those changes now and  get things moving!.”

So… what do we do with that?

Push forward or surrender?

I’ve just read a very interesting book called The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer.  He has made a life-long  commitment to release his personal preferences, and surrender to the bigger “plan” for his life. The story that emerges is very  interesting,  because every single time he relinquishes his ego drive,  something bigger and better than he ever could have imagined, opens up for him.

However, I have to admit, even though this resonated with me on one level, there was and still is, a voice inside my head  that pops up to say…. “But what happens to MY dreams, MY needs, MY purpose… if I surrender entirely to the flow???”

I’ve been mulling over this for a while and have yet to come up with anything definitive, but it does bring to mind  the first  time I ever rode a horse in the wild. It was at NIGHT, a moonless night at that and we were heading down into a valley in the middle of Zululand.  At one point, early on  in the ride,   I could see absolutely nothing. Let me tell you, my ego was freaking out. Every part of me wanted to take control of that horse, or get off and walk.  My body was stiff, I was scared and hanging on for dear life. A friend (experienced at riding in the dark) advised me to soften my body and give my horse a very long rein so that he would be able to smell and sense his way along.

This was completely counter- intuitive, because all  I wanted to do was tighten the reins and hang on with all my might. However,  due to the fact that I didn’t actually know anything about riding, and  had no idea of how to get to where we were going,  I had no option but to take his advice.  All I needed to do was to stay on the horse and keep my head down, to avoid being de-eyed by unseen branches!

The amazing thing was the  more I surrendered my control and put my faith in this  incredibly intuitive being, the more I realised that I could trust him to lead me to where I needed to go, which he did… and flawlessly at that, never even faltering once.  Along the way, on the straight sections, we cantered, wind in our hair…nothing but the sound of horses hooves on the ground and the occasional “Yeehaa!” from the likes of me and my fellow rookies.  I remember closing my eyes at one point and letting my steed do what horses do, without any interference from me at all. I felt completely connected to  him, to the evening, to the earth, the sky, the stars… the whole caboodle.

By trusting and surrendering to something bigger, I had one of the most exhilarating, liberating experiences of my life … and I reached the destination, but in an entirely different way to how I would have planned it. If I reflect on it, whenever   I have surrendered to the flow, I have been supported!

I  guess there is a midpoint somewhere between our  ego drives and surrender.  Perhaps this eclipse asks us to find it. What if we show up, wholeheartedly… get on the horse, head in the basic direction and then let go of the reins a little?  What if we are kinder, gentler, less cruel, less rigid… softer… towards ourselves and others?  What if we are able to relax and trust that we really are not alone in all  this and that there might be an even bigger, more delicious  plan in store for us than the one we’ve imagined ?

As Rumi says, “Life is a balance between holding on and letting go” … perhaps it’s  a dance between making it happen and allowing it happen.

Please see my newsletter or email me for details about my “Art of Surrender” workshops in March.

 

In life and light

Michelle

Lifelight Astrology March 2014

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By Michelle McClunan

March slips quietly into the great blue yonder with the first of two new moons this month on Saturday 1st.  With the Sun, the Moon, Chiron (the wounded healer) and Neptune all in Pisces, there’s a very strong, watery theme indeed.  On the same day we have Mars, Mercury and Saturn in a stationary position, after which they will turn retrograde. More about that below. 

 Fortunately the new moon falls over a weekend, so hopefully we’ll be able to heed the Universal call to apply the brakes and come to a full  STOP ( I think that’s a clear enough message, with three stationary planets), to  tune out the noise, centre ourselves and connect at a deeper level.

 Let’s be human beings this weekend and not human doings!

Imaginative Pisces is a water sign that represents amongst other things –  connection to the divine, healing,  oneness, spirit,  that which is hidden in the unconscious, illusion, delusion, addictive patterns, letting go and surrender. We give Pisces its form and substance through  all different forms of creative expression and flow.

This really is a new moon to go inside and listen. We will all be more  sensitive and finely attuned to spiritual and creative dimensions than usual.   We can also be more emotionally sensitive, tired, lethargic, addicted and depressed than usual.  Wherever you’re at, this  New Moon is setting the stage for a month of surrendering, rather than  striving and controlling. In fact the more we push, the more we’re going to feel like fish swimming upstream. So… I ask myself … Whats the point?

Let’s leeean back… breeeeathe……slooooww down….  Be still…. Feel how your body and soul feels even reading those words.

If possible this weekend,  go for a long walk on a beach , or if you’re inland, find a river.  Reflect on,  journal or creatively process  any illusions, delusions, false beliefs or addictions that may be holding you back from living your life fully. Where are you fighting and resisting and how you can surrender more? What do you need to complete, clear out or release, to prepare to embrace the new astrological year with a lighter load?

 When I look at the planetary activity for this   month and next, March feels like the calm before the storm. There’s another  Grand Cross happening in April, so this is the time to hunker down, connect with and stabalise our centres.

I know I sound a bit like a broken down record, but we really are being called upon as a species to drop our “head” knowledge down to the heart, to get in touch with our souls and not our egos.

More about Mars Retrograde1st March until 20th May

Mars is a masculine planet, that represents how we use (or abuse) our energy in an effort to reach our goals. When it turns retrograde, it’s a prompt to reconsider and re-evaluate our goals, how we go about achieving them and  reflect on how we are spending our energy. Are we making wise investments energetically or poor ones?  Who are the people and what are the situations that raise our energy and who and what drains it?  Really watch that this month. In any situation, feel how your energy is responding. Do you feel revitalised or demolished?  Then re-assess how you can put up healthy boundaries when faced with energy gobbling people, places or situations. Are  you able to stand up for yourself when its called for, in a gentle but strong way?  Can you say “no”?

With Mars being in Libra (the scales) when faced with a challenge, we’re  being encouraged to stop, centre and assess before we react. We need to look at other people or  situations as mirrors serving our growth.  What routines or rituals can we introduce to reduce stress  and create more balance and harmony? Can we be more considerate towards others in terms of the energy we’re putting out?  How can we be Peaceful warriors and stand authentically in our truth in an honest, loving, peaceful way?

Saturn retrograde – 3rd March to 21st July

Saturn is the planet of karma, lessons, limitations and structure.  The next few months will provide us with an opportunity to re-examine and restructure our lives, especially those parts that we find limiting, heavy or inhibiting.  Its about re-organising schedules and setting up systems that serve us.  Look at what you’ve been procrastinating about and attend to whatever needs sorting – finances, taxes (eeu…I know)  This is a time for each of us to stop blaming something  or somebody “out there”  for the situations we find ourselves in, to take full responsibility for our lives and grow up. The area where this will be most highlighted will be the house in which Saturn is situated in your chart.  A Saturn Retrograde period is also a time to re-asses where we have over-committed, dump the things that aren’t entirely necessary and put up healthy boundaries.

Although I realise this might not be entirely feasible,  this month is  not optimal in terms of starting major new projects.  Our energy is best spent  completing, clearing, contemplating, structuring and  planning.

Mercruy goes direct

Most of you will be relieved to know that Mercury goes direct on the 2nd March. Thankfully, this should alleviate some of the crazy technical glitches, delays, contractual upsets and misunderstandings. Whew!

 Full moon – 16th March

Allow the full moon in Virgo on the 16th to show you what healthy routines you can implement to get your mind, body and spirit into balance. More about that closer to the time.

2nd New moon – 30th March

All of the above is in preparation for the 2nd New Moon on the  30th March which feels like the real start of the year. As the sun (our will) and moon (our feelings) dance together in fiery Aries, we will be encouraged to leave the past behind, be brave and give birth to new ways of being; to blaze new pathways, and fully participate in the life you want to co-create with an incredible lightness of being.

I will be posting regular updates on my Facebook page throughout the month. https://www.facebook.com/MichelleMcclunanCreativeSelfDiscovery

 “The beautiful journey of today can only begin when we learn to let go of yesterday.” ― Steve Maraboli

In life, light and stillness

Michelle