Lifelight Astrology April 2014 – A month of Big Change!

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I’ve been seriously considering whether to write a newsletter this week, which is why it’s a little late, but have decided to give it a go anyway. This is a little more than an astrological write-up – the first part is more of a personal blog, straight from my heart, due to the place that I find myself in, with the astrology thrown in later. Please bear with me if this is a bit of a ramble, but I’m going to take you on a little journey to try and explain what’s going on “out there” and how it can play out in our lives, using mine as an example. If one or two of you resonate with it, then it’s served its purpose.

There’s a lot of deeply transformative stuff coming up for all of us astrologically in the next few months and the way I see it, the focus is on finding meaning in it all and in so doing, getting in touch with our authentic power.

So with that in mind here goes…  This really follows on from my last blog posted on 20th March (re-read if necessary – its under this one), where I wrote about us possibly feeling “emotionally cut off, isolated,  a tad depressed, negative, numb or even somewhat stuck…. Heavyish!”   Well!  Little did I know that a couple of days later, I would land up in hospital, where I would remain for a whole week, my physical body being prodded and plundered and my emotions roller-coastering like never before.

It’s a long story, which I’m not going to bore you with and I’m recovering back at home now, thankfully.  However, the whole experience literally brought me and my life to a complete standstill, taking me to a place where I was faced with  the possibility that this could be the beginning of the end of my physical life as I know it. Sitting alone in a sterile x-ray room, being told by a man in a white coat  that the fluid they found around your lung was likely to be due to you having  either cancer or heart failure, is pretty much guaranteed to give you a warm klap (for non South Africans, translate as a slap around the ears)   of giant proportions… or not I guess… if you’re enlightened, which I’m clearly not.  As he said the words, I could feel my egoic mind taking over, I could feel myself separating from my essence and sending my fertile imagination into some rather scary places.

This “diagnosis” led to all sorts of tests, which eventually, one by one,  ruled out both of those dire possibilities. The process of not knowing, however, took a whole week and at this point, the medical fraternity is still scratching their collective heads and  don’t have any answers as to what caused the problem that took me to hospital  in the first place and neither do I. What I do know, is that it goes way beyond the physical body. Perhaps being in the mystery is the answer for me at this point…that, as well as fully taking responsibility for my health and my life and connecting in an even deeper way.

Lying in that hospital bed at night, I had no option but to feel my feelings in techni-colour – no distractions – they ranged from bare-faced fear, to terror, sheer unadulterated panic, anxiety, unbelievable sadness, anger, aloneness, grief and even meaningless. My mind would try it’s best to rationalise it  and tell me that it would all be ok and that I could handle whatever it was and that people deal with much more momentous things than this  every second of every day.

My emotions, however, were having none of that.  It would often feel as if my heart was literally pounding in my throat, so loudly that I could hear it like an African drum had taken up centre stage inside my ears. Throughout all this, the only thing I could do was to surrender. The only thing that eased the pain, was to breathe as deeply as my lungs would allow and tell myself that I was supported by and connected to the Divine and that whatever happened, it was ok. A dear healer/teacher visited, (as did many) and did a very powerful healing on me the night before my little op and reminded me to repeat the Ho’oponopono – “I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you and thank you”. This is one powerful mantra, which I did all the time and am still doing, until I drift off to sleep. If you don’t know this remarkable story. There are lots of links but here’s one if you want to read more.   

As I continue to spend some in reflection –  writing, healing and just “being” with the feelings that come up, I find myself looking for “meaning” in a far deeper way than ever before. I’ve realised that with all the books I’ve read, courses I’ve done etc (and that’s a lot), the real work can only be done deep inside …. alone. I’m still in that place …no where near through the tunnel yet, but doing my best to surrender. In fact, what I know now is that I don’t know very much about anything all. Perhaps that’s an important step towards awakening?

For those of you who are interested and who are still reading, I do believe that the  astrology of this time is really, really urging us to walk the talk, to do what needs to be done in order to let go, transmute, wake up and bring new energy in. From late March through to May, we have yet another opportunity to go deeper, to transform and to set real authentic intentions, which will lead us towards finding real meaning and healing.  Fortunately that doesn’t mean you need get your butt kicked into a hospital ward like I did, but it does mean that transformation is going to happen one way or another.

First of all, we start the month with the Sun moving into the same degree as Uranus (planet of radical change) in Aries (new beginnings, intention) – so one interpretation would be  “Radically changing our intentions”. This activates the Uranus Pluto Square, which will later  turn into another Grand Cross (the 5th of 7 in total), which I’ve written about in detail before. This Cross will become exact again from 20th to the 22nd (over Easter), but the activation has started already. Joining Uranus and Pluto in the tight square will be lofty Jupiter, which amplifies everything and assertive/ aggressive Mars.

The next bit of this blog will mean more to people who have copies of their charts. If you don’t you can  try and intuit where it may play out or you might want to have your chart done. Astrology really does help to understand what’s going on… and what’s going on is big, people. This world, she is a-changing, like it or not and we need to keep up.

So if you have a copy of your chart, here goes. You can look up the house meanings on www.cafeastrology.com.  I’ll relate it back to my chart, to help you get the hang of it, seeing as though I’m baring all today.

  1. First Look at where  12 or 13 degrees Capricorn is in your chart. That’s where Pluto is sitting– this will be area in your life where there are old compulsions, obsessions or control issues  that you need to release. Pluto is transitting my first house, which represents the physical body, how I project myself into the world and controlling my immediate environment -Ha! So much for that!)
  1. Next,  look at the area which houses 12 / 13 degrees Aries. This is where Uranus is. This indicates the area/s in your life that needs to be radically changed.– this is where you can no longer do things the way you’ve been doing them.. any more…finito!  Mine is travelling across my 4th / 5th house cusp. This means changes in and around my actual physical home (which is happening), family relations (that too), my deepest  psychological complexes and connecting with my real spiritual home. Recent dreams of re-organising furniture and moving houses have clarified that even more for me) Watch your dreams by the way…they’ll be profound.  The 5th house is the house of creativity or procreation. Seeing as though I won’t be procreating at this point, it could mean a change in the way I express myself creatively – yay!
  1. Then  look at is where 13 degrees of Cancer resides. This is where lofty, expansive Jupiter is travelling. This is the area where you will find expansion and nurturing, where your inner child might need some care and compassion. Mine is in the house of one-on-one relationships and close friendships. Even though I’m not in a permanent partnership, I have received more nurturing this last week than I ever thought possible. Thanks to each of you –  not a single text, phone call or visit went by unnoticed or unappreciated and each one made me realise that I am not actually alone in this physical world.
  1. Lastly, wherever 13 degrees Libra is situated is where Mars, the warrior king  is hanging out. Being in Libra, this indicates that its related to how we handle our interactions with others, how we judge others and where the reflections are. This is the area where you need to find balance, harmony and authenticity. This is where you need to speak your truth with loving kindness, where you need to be a peaceful warrior. Mine is in the house which relates to groups, group work, humanitarian concerns,  friends,  as well as future goals.

So that’s the Grand Cross – hard to explain but really big and important. As if that isn’t enough, we also have not one, but two eclipses this month, representing great personal and global change. The first is on  15April (in the Southern Hemisphere). It’s a lunar eclipse which means it’s a full moon – in Libra – more relationship stuff)  This one is the first of a string of four  “blood moons” which will happen over the next year and a half.  I don’t know much about them, but books have been written about them and there’s lots to read on the internet.

Essentially what will happen is that light from the sun to the moon will be blocked by the Earth, lasting about 77 minutes (visible only in the northern hemisphere, so us down south won’t see this one L. Some speculate that the blood moons are not just the result of rare alignments and that they are part of  a biblical prophecy to be fulfilled in relevance to Israel. Guess we will just have to see.  As I say, I know nothing. J  The second (solar) eclipse is on the 29th April , which is a new moon in Taurus. More about that later in the month.

So-  if you see life as a stage, then the set is changing and a new one is being constructed, not only in  April, but for the rest of the year. As far as I can see its about  Awareness, Awakeness, Authenticity, Attention, Intention and Meaning and taking responsibility for our lives.  I found this passage recently in a book that was lent to me by another sister/friend – what would we do without em?

The goal in life is not happiness, but meaning” – based on the work of Carl Jung.

That’s a very good place for us to start. . Ask yourself …What gives my life meaning?  Am I living that, doing that, even in a small way every day?  What used to make my heart sing as a child? Do I still do any of that? How am I using the precious energy that I have? Where is my attention? Is it on thoughts of doom, gloom and anxiety, or on grand possibilities?  Am I congruent… am I walking my talk? Am I living an authentic life or behaving in certain ways, just to please others?.  Whilst we’re so busy striving, pleasing and working to achieve what we believe we need to achieve, we sometimes forget to just be ourselves. Am I able to stand in my truth and authentically say what I need to say with firm loving kindness?  Am I feeling my feelings or medicating them away with alcohol or other addictions?

When the chips are down, and you’re alone and unsure of anything, who are you  at the deepest level – Who is the “you” beyond the career, the children, the partner, house, money, responsibilities, concerns, achievements?. When all that is stripped away, what is left? What is your deepest Hearts Desire? Etymologically the word “desire” comes from the Latin de and sidus –and one interpretation is “ to have lost ones navigational star”. Have you lost sight of yours? Perhaps it’s a little dimmed? If so, now’s the time to start clearing the debris away and navigating your way back home.

Please see my newsletter or contact me for details of the  Inspired Intention workshops I’m running on this theme in April . By the way, I will not  be showing you what your heart’s desire is – you will do this yourself – I’m just the tour guide.

I leave you with this thought by a favourite astrologer of mine Tom Lescher for this week. “ If I am to be a co-creator, It’s my job to know what to water, when and how, to regulate the flow. Whatever we want to grow in our lives needs our full attention and deep intention and that’s precisely what the astrology of this month is all about.

Wheweee. That’s me, over and out for now. Thanks for reading

In life and light

Michelle

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LIFELIGHT ASTROLOGY NOVEMBER 2013

LIFELIGHT ASTROLOGY NOVEMBER 2013

Darum… darum…. darum…

The time has come all ye fellow humans to take off those rose coloured specs and replace them with a big old magnifying glass, a torch, some sturdy gumboots and a raincoat as we embark on a serious investigation… leaving no stone un-turned until we have unearthed the honest to God, pure, unbridled, unvarnished truth about ourselves and the role we are playing here on Planet Earth.

 There’s SO much going down right now that I’ve roped in good ol Professor Clouseau, the Pink Panther and Venus in Sagittarius, to help us move through it with a sense of adventure, lightness and humour. If you’re too young to know who they are, ask Mr Google – he’ll come to your aide.

As we travel between the tunnel of two eclipses, most of us are experiencing some discomfort to put it mildly – Whether you’re feeling stuck, overwhelmed, weary of the same old thing happening over and over again, or just plain out of sorts, its ok… you’re not alone and it’s all meant to be… really!

We are in the birth canal and are starting to feel labour pains before the birthing on the 3rd November, with the mother of all eclipses. Present in the delivery room will be the Sun and Moon, Saturn, Mercury Retrograde and the North Node – all in intense, investigative, deeply transformational, watery, emotional  Scorpio ( I did say you needed gumboots and a raincoat). Add the exact Uranus Pluto square to the mix and we have some pretty potent revolutionary energy right there.

As I see it, in plain English, this eclipse marks a potentially huge turning point, a breaking through of awareness, both personally and globally. It symbolises the death of old outworn patriarchal power structures, so that the new can be reborn into something more intelligent, evolved, balanced and connected. The seed that was planted in the sixties is now starting to germinate with the re-emergence of the feminine and the maturing of the masculine.

I said “potentially” because in order to experience or be a part of any transformation,  we have to show up and actively participate. What that means is that we need to take full ownership of being the change we want to see in the world and in order to do that, we first need to find out what needs changing, which is where Professor comes in. Herewith a handy Clouseau style guide into our very own personal thriller.

Question everything

Mount a serious no-holds-barred investigation into every aspect of your life. Of particular significance will be the areas where 11 degrees  Scorpio and Taurus lie.  That’s where you’ll find some potent clues and keys to open the doors of transformation. If you don’t know where that is or what I’m talking about, it might be time to have your chart done or updated.

Some examples of questions to ask:

    • What am I feeling in my body at any given moment?
    • Whose rules am I living by and are they serving me and anyone else?
    • Have my belief system or my values changed and how?
    • Do they need to?
    • What or who pulls me back, makes me feel shackled, heavy or small?
    • What or who makes me feel free, light and empowered?
    • Where am I stuck?
    • What can I let go of – be it false beliefs, negative reactions, people or clutter
    • If I died tomorrow, what would I regret?
    • What do I need help with and who can I ask?
    • What can I do differently, today to help myself and our planet?
    • How can I serve or nurture others?
    • How can I lift my vibration?

It is no mistake that you are here at this moment in time and it is never too late. My mom has reached the ripe old age of 90 and I can honestly say that as frail as she is physically, she has never been stronger emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Far from feeling unimportant she sees herself as performing an important role in sending light and spreading kindness to others. You too, are a unique and vital thread in the tapestry of life and everything you say and do does make a difference!

Look for clues

    • Surveillance – keep watch of how other people (partners, bosses, friends, children and authority figures, drivers, call centre staff etc)  trigger reactions in you. Notice them, and then turn the spotlight onto yourself and ask where in your life you do exactly the same thing. Even if you can’t see it at first, shine it around a bit and you’re sure to find something.  Eg:  “Bloggs is just so lazy, it’s driving me crazy” – Immediately… there and then, ask yourself where in your life you drive yourself crazy by being lazy. Or, “The Government / powers-that-be need to wake up and sort things out” – where do I need to wake up and sort things out? You get the drift…When you find something, see if you can chuckle at yourself, rather than beat yourself up.
    • Be on the lookout for sensations in your body – these can be anything from feeling like a horse has kicked you in the solar plexus, to tears welling up in your eyes when something has touched you deeply, to delicious goose bumps when you  know you’ve stumbled upon grace or unearthed a truth.
    • Watch for synchronicities – even if they seem irrelevant. I’ll give you an example of a recent one of mine (shared only days later by one of my soul sisters)  – I jumped into my car the other day and it was as dead as a dodo… nada… not even a glimmer of life. After contemplating my situation for a few minutes, I got out the car and roped some unsuspecting security guys into giving  me a push and she started. I drove to the closest garage, where they told me that my battery was kaput and kindly lent me one until they could get a replacement. This little event held such lessons for me. First of all, my own internal battery has been feeling flat lately and secondly I realised I need to sometimes ask for help.  I’ve also had a whole lot of un with blocked drains and flooded driveways in the past while, which have served to provide more clues as to what’s out of whack.  Moments after I had the pipes cleared, my energy lifted… go figure!

Take action

This is the time for us to connect with our innate wisdom (feminine) so that we can be guided how to actively and maturely participate (masculine) in transformation of ourselves and our planet.  It’s so important that during this time of confusion and fear, we don’t freeze like deer in the headlights, but rather dive in and do what needs to be done to change what needs to be changed.

Check out Russel Brand’s recent interview on.  You might not agree with him or even like him and he might not know all the answers, but he’s being a catalyst and is prompting us to ask questions we might not normally ask, which is what Scorpio is all about.

We’re being challenged to be revolutionary, to step beyond our comfort zones, take complete responsibility for our lives, for the impact we have on planet earth, for how we treat others, our thoughts, our reactions, the energy we project into the world… and to take it up a notch, to a new level of maturity. Basically we need to grow up, step beyond self doubt and fear and take action. Imagine if we lived our lives afraid of nothing, viewing every thing that happens in our world as an opportunity to change and grow… Imagine if, when in the soul state, you selected each and every person and situation in your life and elected to live during these times in order to help your soul evolve. With that viewpoint, there can be no blame and no victim-hood. The only thing is the question – how am I growing from this or what is it teaching me?

“Transformation happens when you dare to be awakened to greater heights. When you stay open, no matter what. letting each experience, especially the tough ones, strengthen you and add depth and wisdom” Oprah.

In the days leading up the eclipse, we have one of the best opportunities this year to see to our personal plumbing, by releasing whatever toxic waste or clutter we don’t need or doesn’t serve us– physically and metaphorically. Use Mercury Retrograde to reflect on any disempowering  false core beliefs, fears, habitual behaviours, and resentments that are holding you back and start releasing them…. one by one. Writing them down and burning them would be a powerful ritual to perform just before the eclipse. And then on the 3rd, as the moon starts to wax, use your newly found awareness to set new, positive steps in motion.

I still have a few places left on THE DIVINE ROMANCE workshop on the 2nd and 3rd, where we will be working with all of this.

Continuing the theme of investigation into December, I will be running a “REFLECTIONS 2013” workshop, where we’ll review the road we’ve travelled in 2013, before we go hurtling into 2014. We’ll be creating a Gratitude Collage, which is a wonderful process.

On the subject of Gratitude, if you haven’t already, please join my 26 DAYS OF GRATITUDE of Gratitude on Facebook. We’re having such fun and raising vibrations at the same time. This is one way that you can make a difference. 

I leave you with some wisdom from Socrates, who was never known to mince his words. “The unexamined life is not worth living” 

Please share this with anybody you feel might benefit from reading it.

In life and light Michelle

LIFELIGHT ASTROLOGY UPDATE – New Moon 5th October

Waking moon

The new moon on 5th October (at 2:35am) is a whopper!  New moons are  always a time to start afresh, plant,  or set intentions for whatever we want to grow in our lives. This month the focus is on the relationships we have with ourselves and others, and finding a way of bringing them into balance, at a time when things may not be all that hunky dory.  In fact, the next week could be downright tricky, as we yearn for personal freedom and yet paradoxically need to reach out more  …  complex beings that we are.

Over the next few days, be on the lookout for where and how, other people are rattling your cage or pushing your buttons? You might find that they’re showing you exactly what you need to change within yourself.  The astrology of this New Moon is literally here to shake us up, wake us out of our slumber and give us a hefty push to do things differently – personally, professionally and globally. Now is the time to reflect on what’s not working in your life and then take active steps to change it.  If you want something different, do something different…it all starts with you.

We’re constantly needing  to re-invent and re-balance ourselves, so if the old way of doing things isn’t working for you, at this “Waking Moon”,  allow your mind to leap out of its box and run free to embrace new ideas, new strategies, new birth and a new relationship with yourself.  Watch this space for planned workshops in Johannesburg and Durban around this theme

With this being relationship month, If you’ve never had a relationship astrology chart done for you and your partners/ lovers/ children,  then this is a good time to do it.  I’m offering a special on relationship readings until the end of November. I consult  face-to-face in Durban and worldwide on Skype. Contact me for more details.