To Surrender or not to Surrender?

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Coming up on the 26th February, we have a powerful solar eclipse (new moon).  The sun is joined by the Moon, Mercury, the South Node,  Neptune and widely by Chiron … all in Pisces. That’s a whole lot of water right there!

Solar Eclipses always indicate major endings, in order to usher in the new. This is  especially true when they happen in Pisces. Being the last sign of the zodiac, this signals that the end of the astrological year is nigh.  This one is connected to the Pisces  Solar eclipse in March 2015, so  there might very well be a connection, if you think back to that time.

Pisces is a dual water sign  (two fish swimming in opposite directions) and relates to the dreamworld, imagination,  intuition, surrender, Divine Connection and all things mystical. However, it is also associated with  delusion, illusion, addiction and  self-sabotage. It shows us where we let ourselves down, over and  over again, where we still consider ourselves to be victims and where we’re waiting for somebody else to come in and rescue us.

If this eclipse involved only a batch of planets in Pisces, I would expand on that, but it’s really not that simple.  Bringing all that  water to the boil , we also  have a major pattern in the sky, formed by Mars (masculine, goals, ambitions, ego drives) in fiery Aries ( the  warrior)  at the same degree as Uranus,  the planet of radical change and liberation; square  transformational Pluto and opposite expansive Jupiter.

So in English now… this combination of energy says – “What do you desire?  Where do you want to go?  How are you going to get there?  It’s time to push yourself forward, take no prisoners!  Don’t be a woes! Make those changes now and  get things moving!.”

So… what do we do with that?

Push forward or surrender?

I’ve just read a very interesting book called The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer.  He has made a life-long  commitment to release his personal preferences, and surrender to the bigger “plan” for his life. The story that emerges is very  interesting,  because every single time he relinquishes his ego drive,  something bigger and better than he ever could have imagined, opens up for him.

However, I have to admit, even though this resonated with me on one level, there was and still is, a voice inside my head  that pops up to say…. “But what happens to MY dreams, MY needs, MY purpose… if I surrender entirely to the flow???”

I’ve been mulling over this for a while and have yet to come up with anything definitive, but it does bring to mind  the first  time I ever rode a horse in the wild. It was at NIGHT, a moonless night at that and we were heading down into a valley in the middle of Zululand.  At one point, early on  in the ride,   I could see absolutely nothing. Let me tell you, my ego was freaking out. Every part of me wanted to take control of that horse, or get off and walk.  My body was stiff, I was scared and hanging on for dear life. A friend (experienced at riding in the dark) advised me to soften my body and give my horse a very long rein so that he would be able to smell and sense his way along.

This was completely counter- intuitive, because all  I wanted to do was tighten the reins and hang on with all my might. However,  due to the fact that I didn’t actually know anything about riding, and  had no idea of how to get to where we were going,  I had no option but to take his advice.  All I needed to do was to stay on the horse and keep my head down, to avoid being de-eyed by unseen branches!

The amazing thing was the  more I surrendered my control and put my faith in this  incredibly intuitive being, the more I realised that I could trust him to lead me to where I needed to go, which he did… and flawlessly at that, never even faltering once.  Along the way, on the straight sections, we cantered, wind in our hair…nothing but the sound of horses hooves on the ground and the occasional “Yeehaa!” from the likes of me and my fellow rookies.  I remember closing my eyes at one point and letting my steed do what horses do, without any interference from me at all. I felt completely connected to  him, to the evening, to the earth, the sky, the stars… the whole caboodle.

By trusting and surrendering to something bigger, I had one of the most exhilarating, liberating experiences of my life … and I reached the destination, but in an entirely different way to how I would have planned it. If I reflect on it, whenever   I have surrendered to the flow, I have been supported!

I  guess there is a midpoint somewhere between our  ego drives and surrender.  Perhaps this eclipse asks us to find it. What if we show up, wholeheartedly… get on the horse, head in the basic direction and then let go of the reins a little?  What if we are kinder, gentler, less cruel, less rigid… softer… towards ourselves and others?  What if we are able to relax and trust that we really are not alone in all  this and that there might be an even bigger, more delicious  plan in store for us than the one we’ve imagined ?

As Rumi says, “Life is a balance between holding on and letting go” … perhaps it’s  a dance between making it happen and allowing it happen.

Please see my newsletter or email me for details about my “Art of Surrender” workshops in March.

 

In life and light

Michelle

Lifelight Astrology Update 9 February

Lunar Eclipse 11th February – It’s a biggie!

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Hi everybody. Here’s a heads-up on the first eclipse of the year, which happens on the 11th February. This is a lunar eclipse, or a multi-coloured full moon on steroids! It will be followed by a Solar Eclipse (new moon) on the 26th February.

An eclipse represents a gateway, an opportunity, an opening… as well as a time when whatever has been going on beneath the surface, tends to rise up to the surface!  Being a full moon, the focus is likely to be on relationships – those with the people in our lives, as well as with our money, our bodies, our homes etc. The degree of the eclipse is at 22 degrees Leo and Aquarius, so look at the houses that it straddles to find out where it’s likely to play out in your chart.

The good news is that due to the way the planets are aligning around this eclipse, there is a real potential to clear and shift old patterns and obstacles!

The sun is in airy AQUARIUS  (which represents individuality, originality and quirkiness) The moon is in multi-coloured LEO, which represents creativity, joy, warmth and fun.  Together they form a mystic rectangle with Jupiter (the planet of expansion and opportunity) and Uranus (the planet of conscious collective change and liberation).

(Now you know why I posted the pic of the Rainbow Butterfly Unicorn Kitten!)

And that’s not all! They form a  GRAND FIRE TRINE and not one, but  two kites – a stunning combination of air and fire energy that provides a gateway to inspiration, enthusiasm, opportunity and change.

Have a look at this chart and try to sense  the energy of the rectangle, the big blue  triangle and the 2 kites. The blue lines symbolise easy flowing energy, the red  lines represent polarities or tension.  How does it feel to you?

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This eclipse has a big upside. It’s a beautiful invitation to connect with and express our TRUE COLOURS  in all their glory– our inner sun, our heart, our creative life source (Leo) and then allow our unique expression to shine out and ripple out into the world (Aquarius).

There’s a whole lot of good, positive energy around, but we also need to be aware that all the planets involved are ALL  in fire and air signs – that’s a lot of of masculine energy right there!  When I personally feel into the energy, it seems exciting, quickening, almost urgent! There’s lots of inspiration (fire), an abundance  of ideas (air) and plenty of busy-ness!

One small note of caution. We need to remember that air fans fire and that runaway fires can destroy everything in sight!

So…

it would be  good…

to remember to…

PAUSE

in between different activities over the next few weeks. Stop, take a few breaths before we start the next activity or engage with the next idea!

Try it… It really does work!

If we’re able to find our still-point in the midst of all the movement, there’s an excellent chance that we can use the energy of this eclipse to shift, resolve and clear old redundant issues!

If there is a situation or issue that you don’t know how to resolve, try sitting quietly for a  few moments. Connect to your breath and then gently place the situation inside your heart. Send send light and love into it, breathe out and surrender it upwards and outwards.

Then be  on the lookout  for unexpected aha moments, ideas, downloads,  inspirations and  new answers to old problems. They WILL come in if we are open enough. We simply need to show up in our true  multi-coloured presence!

If you haven’t already booked, I still have space on my Rainbow Healing Workshop on 25th February. Its the perfect time to be shifting and clearing and healing!

TRUE COLOURS (Lovely version here) 

You with the sad eyes
Don’t be discouraged
Oh I realize
It’s hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
And that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
Don’t be unhappy, can’t remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you’ve taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I’ll be there

And I’ll see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow

In life and light, with a few rainbow butterfly unicorn chickens thrown in !

 

Michelle

 

Lifelight Astrology 11 January 2017

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Image by Gabriel Tamaya

HONOURING THE FEMININE

We kick this year off Astrologically with an intense, super sensitive, feminine Full Moon in Cancer on 12th  January, AND all the planets have turned direct!  Leading up to, during and after the Full Moon, it’s highly likely that emotions could run high. Full moons  always highlight the polarities that exist within us and in our relationships, bringing to the surface that which has been hiding in the dark. .. and this is a big one!

Involved  with this Full moon, are  Pluto the plumber and planet of intense transformation who is travelling close to the Sun in responsible Capricorn, the Moon in sensitive, nurturing Cancer; both of which are squared by Uranus ( planet of change) and Jupiter (planet of expansion) .  This forms a giant Grand Cross in the Sky, which has the potential of cracking open and breaking through the armour that we may have erected around our hearts, in our striving to move forward. The full moon is also in a flowing trine formation to a group of planets in Pisces (a feminine sign). These include the wounded healer Chiron, Neptune, Mars and Venus, so its a very fertile time for feeling and healing on all levels.

As we all hurtle up our respective responsibility-laden, goal-driven mountains,  ensuring that we’re earning enough money, working as hard as we can, taking care of everybody else, perhaps burning the candle at both ends,  there’s a huge  tendency to close off our hearts, block off our emotions and become desensitised to what’s actually  going on inside and around us .

This full moon sets the scene for us to really start to honour and respect the softer, more vulnerable parts of ourselves, because only when we’re able to do so, can we respect and honour the same in others.

Meryl Streep recently made a powerful heart wrenching speech when she received her award at the Golden Globes.   There has been some controversy about it, but for me, Streep ( a Cancerian)  epitomises the mature woman, who despite her huge success, has kept her heart open and therein lies her immense talent and power.

She quotes

Disrespect invites disrespect.

Violence incites violence.  

Take your broken heart.

Make it into Art.

Most of us are scared stiff of allowing our hearts to be broken open. It feels much easier to  build walls around them. We witness something horrifying.  We turn away. We continue to trudge up the mountain. We become immune!

The problem is that when we block out the difficult feelings, we also block out the good ones.  Repress, ignore or numb pain and we start to flat-line, as  feelings of love and joy can’t flow freely either.

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This full moon and for the next few weeks, see if you can  surrender to the feelings that arise  (because  they will).  Feel.  Breathe. Soften. Allow.  If you try it – you’ll notice that the difficult  emotions pass  much quicker when we don’t suppress them and they are also less likely to  emerge later as  explosions or illness or depression.

This grand cross is likely to bring some of  our exiled shadow bits out of hiding. This could result in people projecting their issues onto you, so,  when interacting with others in the next few days, take long, deep, calming breaths before you react.

 As our own emotional reactions (Cancer) become less spiky and more considered (Capricorn), our interactions with others become smoother as well.

The message of this full moon is about  embracing and expanding the mature mother within us , men and women alike. Rather than expecting and waiting for someone else to provide us with what we need, we’re being asked to learn to give it to ourselves. But… before we can do that, we have to connect with what we need.

If it’s normal for you to put everybody else’s needs before yours, this is the time to start turning that around. There really is nothing noble about ignoring our feelings and our needs and not taking care of ourselves. All that happens when we do, is that they go underground, only to reappear in a different form, when we least expect it.

 If, like many of us, you’re not particularly adept at nurturing yourself, commit (Capricorn) to doing something nurturing (Cancer) for yourself every single day, until it becomes a habit.  Its like watering a plant daily. Do it with love and tenderness and the plant will flourish and grow.  This will look different for us all. It could be something as simple as massaging cream (gently and tenderly) into your skin, quietly sipping a steaming cup of something, languishing in a hot foamy bath or cooking yourself some comfort food.

If each of us brings more softness, more gentlenesss into our lives, it magnifies out into the world and brings about change at a level we cannot even comprehend.

“The planet does not need more successful people. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers, healers restorers, story tellers and lovers of all kinds”.

These are the words of the Dalai Lama, who like Madiba,  is a Cancerian – real men, who have integrated their Mature Feminine. This is what the world needs now.

Love

 

Michelle

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lifelight Astrology 13th December 16

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As the end of yet another  year draws to a close and we find ourselves immersed in the silly season,  let’s take a few moments to consider the year and all it held, before we go scuttling off on another journey around that golden sun of ours.

The full moon in the early hours of the morning on 14th December  in Gemini, provides just such an opportunity. This is normally a  light-hearted, busy,  communicative, optimistic full moon – much like this time of the year is on the surface, with all the bells and gifts and  fairy lights and  Christmas cheer. But this year, Saturn is joining the party and adding a dose of seriousness to the mix . I do think its good to bear in mind that for many people, who might be experiencing loss, illness or struggle,  this can be the hardest and loneliest time of the year. In the next few weeks, as we count down to the end of the year, not only is Saturn travelling close to the Sun, but Mercury, the planet of communication is in Capricorn (the sign ruled by Saturn). The communicator will go retrograde on the 21st  and is hanging out with Pluto, the plumber of the Zodiac.

This can play out in a number of different ways.

Old Chronos (Saturn) can be a real party pooper, a finger-wagging, stern,  parental voice, taking up residence in our heads. He can tell us, in no uncertain terms what we’ve done wrong, how little we’ve achieved, where we’re failing in our lives  and what losers we are.

Or, he can be more of a kind-hearted parent, who has our best interests at heart and helps us to enter into a dialogue with ourselves and others,  to assess and COMPLETE the year, with a good solid dose of maturity, sprinkled with tenderness.

I’m seeing this truth seeking, communicative full moon and the weeks leading up to the new moon, on the 29th December, as a brilliant time to do this. We are being presented with just the right energy to GENTLY reassess the year,  look at the blessings, the challenges, the wins and the losses and to excavate the  GOLD!

Here are some questions that might help get you started:

  • What changed for you this year?
  • Describe  your challenges
  • Describe your wins
  • What do feel you accomplished?
  • What do you feel you didn’t accomplish?
  • Who were the most important people in your life this year?
  • Was there anybody new who arrived in your life?
  • Was there anybody who left your life?
  • Describe the sadnesses
  • Describe the joys
  • What have you  discovered about yourself this year?
  • If you could sum 2017 up in one word, what would it be?

Use these questions as a guideline, but add to them. If you like, play with images, or collages, or doodles.

As the moon wanes for the next few weeks, clear, declutter and let go of whatever you don’t need, so you can start afresh in 2017.

I still have a a couple of places left on my WRAP IT UP workshops this  Saturday or Sunday and have dates lined up for the VISION BOARD WORKSHOPS in JANUARY. Check out my newsletter or email me for details. .

If you haven’t yet done so, you might want to book an astrology session for the New Year to see what’s in store astrologically for you in 2017.

 

In life and light and kindness

 

Michelle

 

Lifelight Astrology November 2016

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A RIVER RUNS THROUGH

Painting and words by Michelle McClunan

One of the up-sides to writing these newsletters is that I get to stop the outer noise of my life and ponder things more deeply and intensely than usual…deep and intense both being characteristics of Scorpio, which is our theme for November.

There’s a huge focus on the water element over the next few weeks, starting with an intense, transformational, but healing  New Moon on the 31st October. Mercury joins the sun and the moon in Scorpio and the trio form a flowing aspect to mystical, mysterious Neptune in Pisces.

Water… water… everywhere… can you feel it?

How does the water element relate to us personally ? It represents feelings, emotions, sensitivity, compassion, empathy, flow, nurturing, connection to all that is, purification, cleaning, clearing, power, tenacity. If  water isn’t channelled, it can be overwhelming, scary and unpredictable and of course, it can lead to destruction.

Picture the life of a river in your mind’s eye. Starting off as a little spring, full of potential, it grows into a stream and then might become a happy babbling brook. With each big rain, the stream may swell, until it becomes a raging river… a powerful, ambitious  force,  flowing with an intensity that will burst its banks, should they be too narrow to contain it. The river tenaciously, carves its way through the landscape, moving huge boulders, trees or anything else in its way. At other times, this very same river might almost completely dry up or stop and become stagnant, until the next rains arrive.

The river is never ever the same, not even for a moment. It will encounter obstacles, but will almost always find a way under, through  or around them.  The interesting thing about water is that it changes state but it never dies.

Much like us!

Sometimes the river might get dammed up by us humans, so as to keep it all in one place. Imagine you as a happy babbling little river, trundling along over the rocks… flowing… free to be. Suddenly you meet a wall and there seems to be no way of getting through it. Feel what that feels like in your body. Now imagine the sluice gates opening, so the river can flow again. How does that feel?

When I look at the astrology of the next few weeks, it feels to me that the new moon and her flowing aspects to Neptune, are opening the sluice gates, as it were, giving us the opportunity to clear what we need to clear, release the pressure and get back into the flow.

Perhaps you’ve been experiencing water issues lately…flooding, mud, geysers bursting, pipes getting blocked or drying up. Or… you might have issues with your body’s plumbing system?   Any of these could suggest that your ”water might be out of whack”

If you feel like your banks are bursting, you may find that you’ve dammed up some old emotions that now need to be felt and released. If you feel stagnant, you might need to shine a light on the nooks and crannies of your body, mind and soul, to see if there’s anything there that might be  making you toxic. If you feel dry, stagnant or uninspired, you might need some nourishing – time out, creative expression, long hot baths, or you might need to drink more water – to get the flow going again.

If you need some help with navigating your waters, book an ASTROLOGY, COACHING or PROCESS ART session with me – or join me on one of the RIVER OF LIFE WORKSHOPS in November. Email me for details.

Back to the New Moon and the Astrology for November.

With Mercury involved with this new moon, we have the opportunity of reaching a deeper level of understanding about the way we communication, thoughts and our core belief systems.

We also have Venus (the planet of love and money) in a close dance with Saturn in Sagittarius.  This can mean that we feel limited financially or that relationships  feels restrictive. And/or it can mean that we have an opportunity to bring maturity and stability to our relationships  with others and our money.

The last few months have been really, really difficult for many. Our planet and our country is in crisis. It almost feels like we are reaching some kind of a tipping point. Many of us have been feeling really anxious, irritated or flat out pissed off of late, with a sort of impending doom permeating the atmosphere (especially last week).

Another theme that’s been coming up often is the underlying fear that we might be missing or have already missed, the boat in our lives. If it’s any consolation… you can’t miss the boat, because you’re already on it!

The best thing we can all do during these times is to stay on the boat, with as much presence as possible, and use the navigational equipment we have at our disposal to help us stay in the flow and steer our way through the fog. If we resist the flow of the river, or try and go upstream, there’s a good chance we will feel like we are unravelling.

Our feelings and intuition are our navigational equipment, so when we ignore  them, there’s a good chance we might drift off course for a while.

The new moon, through its contact with Neptune is suggesting that there is an opening to really connect with our intuition and to unseen realms as well.

Pause, breathe, connect with your body, let whatever arises to just be,  soften, breathe, flow with it, breathe again… Take time to connect to Source, / The Divine / Your guides/ Your Ancestors/ the Angelic Realm and  ask for help. I don’t know about you, but I sometimes forget to ask.

After you’ve made your request,  let it go and pay attention to  your dreams, to symbols and signs, chance meetings and sudden intuitive flashes or knowings. Don’t chase them down – let them come out of the mist.

In Life, Light and Flow

 

Michelle

 

 

LIFELIGHT ASTROLOGY 13TH OCTOBER

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SHAKE RATTLE AND ROLL

Are you ready to be catapulted out of the old and into the new?  Well the full moon on Saturday night/ Sunday (16th October) might help you do just that!

First of all, it’s a Super Moon, which means that it’s closer to the earth, bigger and a lot more potent than usual!

The moon is in fiery, independent, assertive, potentially war-like Aries  and is opposed by the Sun, Mercury and Jupiter in Libra.

That’s quite a polarity right there. Aries is about me… my life, my needs, my goals,  my ego, my independence. Libra is about you/ the other… it’s about relationships of all kinds; keeping the peace; justice; balance, co-operation and money!.

But here’s the kicker… the moon is closely joined (and the sun  opposed by)  rebellious, revolutionary, rule-breaker Uranus, which makes  this a  “thunder and lightning” type of full moon.  Uranus arrives unexpectedly,  just like lightning, with a large dose of the dramatic, jolting us out of any sluggishness, paralysis or boredom… shaking, rattling and rolling our cages, in order to break down old barriers and initiate radical change.

This full moon will light up exactly what we feel is limiting us or standing in the way of our independence or our personal freedom (Aries), as well as what’s really going on with our money and our relationships (Libra) It will illuminate in technicolour what we just aren’t prepared to tolerate any more and what needs to shift.

This full moon is a harbinger of change, which could be stressful, uncomfortable and possibly a little dangerous

AND/ OR

If you like a bit of excitement and are ready to embrace change, you might find it exhilarating. She brings with her flashes of intuition, along with some highly charged energy to help blow those cobwebs away and get things moving!

More news is that Pluto and Mars  in Capricorn (which are squaring the Libra contingent)  are  moving in for a close dance, which challenges power structures of all kinds. This  is likely to be  accompanied by tensions in communications and even more skeletons emerging from  even more governmental closets.

When I was reflecting on what to write about today, the word “Equanimity” popped into my head.  Definition –  “calmness and composure, especially in a difficult situation.

Life is challenging for many of us right now, so I think Equanimity is a good  Libran quality to connect with. IF or when you are triggered by something or someone, try stepping away, breathing and counting to  ten or twenty or a hundred…. before launching into defense or attack. Ask yourself one simple question. Is it  worth going to war!  Sometimes it is, but we always have the choice.

The other word that comes up is  “surrender”. When we’ve done all we can do , sometimes we just need to let it be, do our best to stay in the present moment and wait it out.

 

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In Life and Light

 

Michelle

NEW MOON IN LIBRA 1st OCTOBER

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BALANCING ACT

October kicks off with a NEW MOON in Libra, in the wee small hours of the morning on Saturday, in the Southern Hemisphere (up north, it happens on 30th September) . This  moon has  expansive, optimistic Jupiter along-side it, continuing the theme I wrote about last week in my Equinox post. As many of you may know, Jupiter expands whatever it touches. When it touches something good, that expands and when it touches something not so good… well… then there will be more of that!

Even though this looks like a purely lucky, expansive ,harmonious  New Moon at first glance (and it is), there is another side to it.

This one sets the scene for a bit of a balancing act for the next few weeks.  Some of you (if you’re old enough) might remember using scales with weights at school. You put a couple on one side and then had to adjust and re-adjust, until you got  them to balance perfectly…. adding a few, taking a few away. That’s what Libra  is actually about… adjusting until you find the balance. It doesn’t just magically happen… unfortunately.

Picture this on this new moon – on one end  of the scale, we have a peaceful, happy, pleasing little bunch,  consisting of Jupiter, the Sun and the Moon, providing us with the opportunity  of bringing more peace, love, harmony, balance and money into our lives.

On the other side, (in a square to the peace party) we have assertive, ambitious, sometimes war-like  Mars in  Capricorn AND  Pluto, the plumber of the psyche. Did you ever, when you were a child link arms with your mates and walk through the school yard singing “We walk straight, so you’d better get out the way” Well, maybe not, but I remember it vividly!   This is what Mars and Pluto in Capricorn remind me of?  I am driven to move forward/upward and nobody is going to stop me! This is obviously in stark contrast to the pleasing bunch in Libra!

This duo certainly is not going to let us get away with being too airy fairy or idealistic. They’re intensely focused on getting to the bottom of our relationships – those we have with others, our homes, our finances and ourselves. They will urge us to drill down and bring to the surface wherever we’re being inauthentic or  our lives are out of whack.

These are good questions to ask this new moon

  • Am I standing at the centre point of my life or am I allowing myself to be jostled about by others?.
  • Am I giving too much… or too little to the significant people in our live?
  • Am I co-operating in a spirit of unity or just being a push-over?
  • Where am I pleasing others to the detriment of my own goals and dreams?
  • Where and how are others being mirrors to me?

 

This is a good time to negotiate what we need in our relationships, so grab your “person” by the hand, go somewhere beautiful  and have a good heart-to-heart.

There’s magic in the air. You never know what might happen….

 

In Life and light